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A Long Time Coming

God has been tugging at my heart to visit my blog for the past few days.  I really didn’t understand why because I was journaling again and that was something I hadn’t done in a while, I was hoping He’d let me gather a little more consistency in that before He pushed me to blog again.  I logged in and tripped out a little bit at how long its been since I blogged, two years — WOW.  Well, here I am.  I wish I could tell y’all that I have some profound thought to share filled with exciting words and a roller coaster ride of emotions but I’d be lying to you in a major way.

I am here because I’ve been on an interesting journey that I’m being led to share the condensed version of.  Have you ever prayed and asked God to help you make better decisions? Or maybe this prayer, “Lord, use me for Your Glory?” Or my favorite, “God, please make me better, help me make better decisions.”  You ever heard someone say, “Be careful what you pray for?” Yeah, all of these statements and prayer types have crossed my ears a time or two, but the realization of those statements and requests busted me in the mouth in the last 365 days.

One year ago, God performed a major miracle in my life.  Now’s not the time to go to deep into that, but if you read this blog and you’re interested in knowing more about that amazing miracle, feel free to email me, I’m all too happy to testify of God’s AMAZING power.  Anyway, after that miracle was performed I believe the rulers of the dark world were pretty dog on mad at that solid victory God secured in my life, so they went to strategizing.  My mind played tricks on me, I was subscribing to crazy thoughts, and worst of all I disobeyed God.  Giving in to all of those things, led me astray from God, but not out of His reach.  God allowed me to travel what I “thought” was a wayward road to get me here… to today.

After that miracle and then straying down a road of “doing my own thing” (for my bible scholars, “Leaning to my own understanding”) God used that entire period to draw me to Him.  I was drawn to God in the most unusual way.  I was in so much pain and torment as a result of the choices I made, I was desperate for God, I mean DESPERATE!  The end of my downward spiral was as simple as my very next decision.  I had to decide that I wanted to feel better and do better.  It was as simple as my next decision, but it wasn’t as easy as my next decision (I promise I am going somewhere).  The road to seeing that outcome of that choice was hard but rewarding.  God began to show me where I veered off course, then He showed me characteristics within me (that if I can be honest I REFUSED to deal with) that made me susceptible to the enemy.  I was in such a place of desperation to do “it all” God’s way that I was praying, fasting, studying, reading and denying myself in every area I could to ensure I heard Him.  I did hear Him, I didn’t walk in 100% obedience during this time and a lot of that was because of self-doubt and insecurity that I was actually hearing from God after all I’d done.

That journey landed me right here… a place I haven’t visited in two years, but it seems God is using it to heal my land.  I experienced fear like I’ve never experienced before finally recognizing that I needed God and God alone to make it out of my self-inflicted storms.  The journey to feeling better, hearing clearer and drawing closer I am extremely thankful for; however, I will NOT lie to y’all in this blog and say I would do it all over again if I had to… man NAWL! NOPE, NO, NADDA! It is my hope that I will be clear of mind to hear and heed God the next time I think a detour will get me to the destination quicker and He says no.  I am still very much in the process of healing, growing, learning and being pruned of the tares I’ve entangled myself with from my year’s journey, but I can say without a shadow of a doubt God is WITH ME!

I hope you enjoyed this read — thanks for reading!!

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March 28, 2018 Posted by | Hard Roads | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

God Is Not Mean

I have encountered quite a few people over the years who operate with mean, nasty, and harsh actions in the Name of God.  As I grew, studied and learned for myself I realized God doesn’t operate like that at all — AT ALL.  I’ve witnessed people curse others in the Name of God because those individuals didn’t operate in the way they thought they should be operating.  What prompted me to write this blog was a very recent experience I had, I witnessed professed believers in Christ operate in a spirit of pure meanness because other believers they knew didn’t do things the way they did spiritually.  They talked badly about individuals and ended the harshness with “Well, we will just pray for them.” As I reflect back on that my thought is, “Yeah, homey, keep those prayers, I’m good on that.” I mean for real, I watched you get angry because a person or persons don’t approach God like you, minister like you think they should or do what you think they should do when you tell them to.  From that anger, indirect shots would be taken via social media outlets (in the Name of God of course) -OR- that person would be slandered, almost damned to hell.  That’s not God.  Does God get mad? Yes.  Does He get frustrated? Yes.  Could He curse us and kill us all? Yes, BUT… His Love for us keeps Him from imposing the harshness our actions really deserve upon us.  His Love is a love that we can’t comprehend, even with the highest degrees.  He doesn’t love on human levels (with condition and prerequisites) He loves us in spite of us.  Loving like that isn’t rooted in meanness and anger.

What’s really messed up is, people shy away from God’s Love because they encounter people who profess to walk with God that operate with a hellfire and brimstone countenance.  I’ve realized that when God opens your eyes to deficiencies like this in His Kingdom you’re required to do something to change the culture.  No, I’m not supposed to walk up to the mean believers and damn them to hell LOL — even though that would seem justified, but no.  I am aware now, I should exemplify the Love, be the Love, share the Love regardless of who it is, how they are, what they do, who they hang out with, what they believe, if I profess to be a follower of Christ, a recipient of God’s Love, His Love should pour out of me in every way without prerequisite.

Religious requirements set these unauthorized standards for people to receive God’s Love.  God’s Love changes your mind, opens your heart, fuels you, grows you and these man initiated standards keep people from experiencing it.  God’s Love changed my mind about who I am, what I can be, who I can grow into.  I was forgiven through His Love for mistakes I’d sentenced myself for.  I grew confident that I had something valid to contribute to the world because of God’s Love.  However, mean-spirited people who operate in a religious sect, that believe a person is unworthy of God’s Love because that person doesn’t meet “their” requirements are playing against God, they keep people from experiencing the very thing Christ died for.  The craziest part about this whole thing is, those same mean people scream, “I want to lead souls to Christ,” “Point people to God,” “Show the Love of God to all I meet.”  The part they leave out is if they meet the standards I think they should meet first.

In short, I just wanted to say, God is NOT MEAN… God is LOVE.

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April 2, 2018 Posted by | The World Outside Your Window | Leave a comment

Now I Know Better

Life being an ever-learning journey is a TRUE STORY indeed. One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned, am learning is TAKE RESPONSIBILITY. I will be the first person to scream, “self reflection” but boy have I had a up close and personal experience with that recently.

One thing that came out of this is how God deals with you one on One. It won’t be understood by many, I’ve found that was by design and where your peace lies. We can take solace in obeying God without explanation to others, especially when we are clear we are Following His Way :).

God’s Ways we can’t fathom even with the highest degree and IQ we won’t come close. I know better, a little better now. I’m back on track. No explanations needed… Thank You Lord.

April 1, 2018 Posted by | Hard Roads | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Adult Bullying: Why??

I dealt with bullying as a child, the “justification” for the actions of the bully was, “Oh, they’re just children, immature.”  Well, now I’m well into my 30s, almost 40 and I’d like to know, what’s excuses are we flailing around to explain adult bullies?  Social media has opened up worlds we once had no access to; it has also given us this false idea that we have a right to give our opinion on people’s lives that we don’t contribute to.  That is how I came to write this blog, while perusing social media I came across a series of articles discussing a “beef” between two female celebrities.  As I watched all the various videos about these two women, it made me really sad, because all I kept thinking about was everyone has their own lane.  There was no need for these two women to tear each other down the way they were and it was even more disappointing that the media was fueling the flame.  One of the ladies was very intentional in her slander of the other woman; she made sure her social media followers followed suit ultimately bringing the other lady to tears.

This is all so unnecessary to me, but it does bring an issue to light that we’ve politely swept under the rug; adult bullying.  I really wish we did believe the cliche’s we throw around, “no need to compete, there’s enough for everyone to go around,” “comparison is the death of originality,” etc… but we really don’t believe it, it just sounds good to say!  The root of bullying is INSECURITY… Insecurity that has not been dealt with births envy, jealousy, the need to tear someone else down so that you can feel better about you.  When we’ve truly dealt with our insecurities, accepting who we are, changing at our own pace, there’s no need to tear someone else down who may be a little further along than we are.  It is sad that we live in the world that masks insecurities by way of breaking others down.

Why is it so hard to celebrate the next man?  Why do adults come after other adults? If you have an opinion about the life of another person, write it down and say it to yourself.  Breaking people down to lift yourself up is the quickest way to break yourself down.

 

May 22, 2016 Posted by | The World Outside Your Window | Leave a comment

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March 12, 2016 Posted by | The World Outside Your Window | Leave a comment

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March 12, 2016 Posted by | The World Outside Your Window | Leave a comment

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Explaining Me

One weakness of me, that has been sort thrust in my face lately is me feeling the NEED to explain… why I do what I do, why I say no to certain things, why I believe what I believe, why I am who I am.  I found myself asking God, “Why am I always confronted with things… that leave me feeling obligated or guilty? and then when I am not adequately equipped to fulfill the request made of me, I feel the need to explain?  Well, I think God answered it for me, very simply…. because you need to stop explaining.

I had two family members ask me for money, within 2 days of each other.  I really didn’t have what they asked for, but rather than just say, “No, I don’t have it.” I felt the need to tell them why I didn’t have it, when it actuality I owed them no explanation, no should’ve been enough.  I think I understand now, why I always feel the need to explain… because it’s an insecurity of mine… I don’t want people to “think” differently about me because I couldn’t meet a need they had.  I know, it sounds RIDICULOUS, but it’s the truth about me.  That statement proves I still gave a great deal about people’s perception and belief about me.  One thing I’m learning to do and I really thought I’d dealt the major insecurity that’s plagued me most of my life, having the need to be accepted and validated by people.

I am on a journey to be completely delivered from that; God has validated me and that should be enough for me.  I have to believe that my “no” is enough and I have to be OK with folks perception of me, not try to control or change that by what I try to convince them.  I have to take one of those old school mantras I was told over and over, “Folks gon’ say what they gon’ say and think what they gon’ think about you, ain’t nothing you can do about that…”  I need to GET MY LIFE.  I need to be real with myself, ask and answer the question, “Why do you care what’s thought about you?” “Do you believe you don’t give enough so when you don’t have to give you feel guilty?” If yes, WHY?????

I am realizing something, God is allowing me to see things about myself that need to be changed so that I grow up and grow into a better me.  I’m thankful…

November 1, 2015 Posted by | The World Outside Your Window | 1 Comment

Definition of Self

Looking over my life, who I am, what I’ve done, what I haven’t done, the good, the bad, the ugly of it all… I realized, through each experience, I’ve defined myself by so many superficial things…. as I journey forward, my mistakes in life are more visible not to hold me hostage, but to help me learning.  Needless to say, I’m learning.  Insecurities are real, however, I know they can be dealt with, I’m dealing with mine and I’m not defined by many of them like I used to be.  People need our authenticity; they don’t need to see the masks, they need to see us making it through difficulties and the especially need to know Who helped us through our painful journey’s.  Easier said, than done.  I know, but it’s doable.  I am thankful for this season right here, where I currently am.  It’s not easy but it’s not unbearable.  I hear people saying, love yourself, be who you are, but that really doesn’t deal with the core issues that people have.  You don’t just wake up loving yourself…. especially if you’re burdened by insecurities.  People need to know how to deal with their hurt, tell them how you dealt with yours… the nights you prayed, cried, days you cursed, days you lied… the forgiveness talks with God…the morning walks where you just reflected in silence.  The moments where you had to say you’re sorry, face that nightmare in order to see it fade away.  People can’t love themselves until they deal with their issues, however God leads them to do it.  Share the encouragement, that there is a CHOICE…. your voice is important, and God has a plan for you.  The definition of who we are can be found in Jesus…

Just sharing some thoughts, hope you all enjoyed!

September 6, 2015 Posted by | The World Outside Your Window | Leave a comment

Thoughts

There is so much to look forward to in every new day we’re given.  Seems like the older I get the more things began to make sense and the more I find myself wondering how different certain situations would be if I knew “then” what I know now.  However, God provided the outcomes of every life situation I had based on the choices I made and that’s how I ended up in the place I’m in today.  Makes me think about the choices I make going forward, b/c even the choices that weren’t so smart, once I stopped trying to do things my way and literally gave the broken pieces over to God, He made those broken pieces into something.  Today, I realize I have to choose God to lead, choose God’s Voice, choose God.  Every situation won’t be perfect, the glitches will make sense down the line…  I didn’t trust God in every area of my life my whole life.  I had to take some hits, but I’m thankful that the scars aren’t visible. I realize more and more each day that I need God for everything and I have to learn how to trust Him fully.

August 23, 2015 Posted by | The World Outside Your Window | Leave a comment

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