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Now I Know Better

Life being an ever-learning journey is a TRUE STORY indeed. One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned, am learning is TAKE RESPONSIBILITY. I will be the first person to scream, “self reflection” but boy have I had a up close and personal experience with that recently.

One thing that came out of this is how God deals with you one on One. It won’t be understood by many, I’ve found that was by design and where your peace lies. We can take solace in obeying God without explanation to others, especially when we are clear we are Following His Way :).

God’s Ways we can’t fathom even with the highest degree and IQ we won’t come close. I know better, a little better now. I’m back on track. No explanations needed… Thank You Lord.

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April 1, 2018 Posted by | Hard Roads | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A Long Time Coming

God has been tugging at my heart to visit my blog for the past few days.  I really didn’t understand why because I was journaling again and that was something I hadn’t done in a while, I was hoping He’d let me gather a little more consistency in that before He pushed me to blog again.  I logged in and tripped out a little bit at how long its been since I blogged, two years — WOW.  Well, here I am.  I wish I could tell y’all that I have some profound thought to share filled with exciting words and a roller coaster ride of emotions but I’d be lying to you in a major way.

I am here because I’ve been on an interesting journey that I’m being led to share the condensed version of.  Have you ever prayed and asked God to help you make better decisions? Or maybe this prayer, “Lord, use me for Your Glory?” Or my favorite, “God, please make me better, help me make better decisions.”  You ever heard someone say, “Be careful what you pray for?” Yeah, all of these statements and prayer types have crossed my ears a time or two, but the realization of those statements and requests busted me in the mouth in the last 365 days.

One year ago, God performed a major miracle in my life.  Now’s not the time to go to deep into that, but if you read this blog and you’re interested in knowing more about that amazing miracle, feel free to email me, I’m all too happy to testify of God’s AMAZING power.  Anyway, after that miracle was performed I believe the rulers of the dark world were pretty dog on mad at that solid victory God secured in my life, so they went to strategizing.  My mind played tricks on me, I was subscribing to crazy thoughts, and worst of all I disobeyed God.  Giving in to all of those things, led me astray from God, but not out of His reach.  God allowed me to travel what I “thought” was a wayward road to get me here… to today.

After that miracle and then straying down a road of “doing my own thing” (for my bible scholars, “Leaning to my own understanding”) God used that entire period to draw me to Him.  I was drawn to God in the most unusual way.  I was in so much pain and torment as a result of the choices I made, I was desperate for God, I mean DESPERATE!  The end of my downward spiral was as simple as my very next decision.  I had to decide that I wanted to feel better and do better.  It was as simple as my next decision, but it wasn’t as easy as my next decision (I promise I am going somewhere).  The road to seeing that outcome of that choice was hard but rewarding.  God began to show me where I veered off course, then He showed me characteristics within me (that if I can be honest I REFUSED to deal with) that made me susceptible to the enemy.  I was in such a place of desperation to do “it all” God’s way that I was praying, fasting, studying, reading and denying myself in every area I could to ensure I heard Him.  I did hear Him, I didn’t walk in 100% obedience during this time and a lot of that was because of self-doubt and insecurity that I was actually hearing from God after all I’d done.

That journey landed me right here… a place I haven’t visited in two years, but it seems God is using it to heal my land.  I experienced fear like I’ve never experienced before finally recognizing that I needed God and God alone to make it out of my self-inflicted storms.  The journey to feeling better, hearing clearer and drawing closer I am extremely thankful for; however, I will NOT lie to y’all in this blog and say I would do it all over again if I had to… man NAWL! NOPE, NO, NADDA! It is my hope that I will be clear of mind to hear and heed God the next time I think a detour will get me to the destination quicker and He says no.  I am still very much in the process of healing, growing, learning and being pruned of the tares I’ve entangled myself with from my year’s journey, but I can say without a shadow of a doubt God is WITH ME!

I hope you enjoyed this read — thanks for reading!!

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March 28, 2018 Posted by | Hard Roads | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Your Choice…

There’s this wonderful thing called “free will,” that I think we grossly misunderstand.  No one person is without mistake, but the thing about making mistakes is whether or not you learn from them.  So, you’re free will… you make a choice, that choice results in a consequence, that consequence results in a process or pathway you travel and some choices leave us wondering, “Did I make the right choice?” or “Why did I make this choice?”  It’s funny, in my own learning, growing, changing, and being corrected, I have indeed found myself not always accepting the consequences of the choices I made.  Some things, I didn’t want to take responsibility for, I didn’t want to acknowledge that there were choices I made, some where that got me to this crazy point I stand at today.  I realize, not taking responsibility for the free will decisions I’ve made and instead wanting to blame God or even another person for the outcome as a result of my choices, prevented me from LEARNING from it.  I used to be that person… victim, the one people wanted to hurt, or my favorite, “Oh I’m a black sheep…”  However, today, I realize that was a coward out, a way for me to avoid have to pull myself up by my boot straps, swallow my pride and say, “Hey, you made a few mistakes, some choice that landed you here, but now, wash your face, look to God and find out the next step He wants you to take to begin the correction and restoration process.”

I am not saying, that everything someone goes through is their fault, because there are God allowed things that happen in our lives, that I just gotta be honest, we aren’t meant to understand them.  I believe that is the pill that is the hardest to swallow for a free will being… especially living in a country where many people actually believe they are entitled.  This message, is simply about taking responsibility for where you are in life.  I can’t put my mouth on any one else, but Stacy, oh boy have I taken the process I was meant to endure and blame someone else for it.  I was foolishly bold enough to even say, “God is selective in whom He loves, because if He really loved me, I wouldn’t be going through: [this].”  In essence, I didn’t believe God’s Word, that “all things work together for good to those who love God…(Romans 8:28)”  What God promised in that scripture couldn’t come true in my life until I believed the second part of it, “to those who are called according to His purpose.”  The second part of that scripture to me means, I had to first believe He called me and secondly, I had to trust what He called me for…including all that I had to face in this life.  I wanted God in my life when it benefited me, I didn’t want to serve Him, I wanted Him to serve me.  Don’t raise your eyebrows at that statement, every time we deviate from God’s plans, purpose for something, every time we make a choice that directly contradicts His will… we say in no uncertain terms, “God I want You to serve me; I’m not interested in serving, obeying and trusting You or Your plans.” I think if we truly heard ourselves saying those words when we ignore the still small voice, the gut feeling, the countless warnings He gives us right before we do something of our own free will, we’d be less likely to do it.

Even in the making of the mistake, the blatant decisions I’ve made which resulted in me enduring a tough process, there’s Hope; God still covers and protects, while He corrects. I love that the choices I’ve made can be used to make me a better me if I first take responsibility for the choice I made, repent and ask God to lead me, decrease me that He might increase within me.  I know that is something tough for people to grasp… God having such a measure of faithfulness, such a Love for a people who turn their backs on Him and blame Him at every turn, but He still blesses, protects, covers, re-directs, shares, cares, and wants them apart of Him.  But again, to see that… guess what it starts with… Your Choice.

July 19, 2015 Posted by | The World Outside Your Window | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Just A Beat of My Heart…

Tonight WP I sit in a very familiar place; I can feel the tears welling up in my eyes and at the same time I feel them spilling over in my heart.  I am at a place that I’ve been before, I know it, I feel it.  So tonight, I am here not to vent or bring you down, but to encourage you all. Remain positive, NO MATTER WHAT life throws your way; remember what’s thrown at you, you CAN handle!  Hurt when left untreated can fester, corrode, and turn into a hardened rust that only God can heal.  Anger when left to sit can spread like a virus and infect everything and everyone it comes in contact with.  So someone may ask, “How do you deal with that?” “How do you cope?” Start by thinking on better thoughts… you can’t produce what isn’t already in your heart to come out…

Life is not an easy feat, it was never meant to be, however, I believe life was meant to be a journey full of lessons that results in blessings.  Some of the lessons we’re meant to learn in life don’t come to us in an easy way and those are the ones that I believe stick closest to your heart, the lessons that you can walk someone else through to help them avoid going through what you did to get what God intended to teach you.  So, tonight I sit here in the place of “Be anxious for nothing but in EVERYTHING give thanks…” and I have to do just that… in EVERYTHING… my angst, my hurt, my nervousness, I will GIVE THANKS!

I am not religious by any stretch of the imagination, I do however have a relationship with Jesus Christ and I believe He has something GREAT in store for me if I conquer this moment that attempts to ail me right now.  I just wanted to connect with you all WP Family; I pray you all have a beautiful evening and continue to be ENCOURAGED!Image

February 25, 2014 Posted by | The World Outside Your Window | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Do You Really Trust Him?

Do you trust God for real? When life hits….HARD do you trust God to see you through?  I had an experience very recently that tested this question in my life directly.  What do you do when LIFE throws a stone at you and it lands; do you lay there and cry or get up and try?

Question of the day: When life really tries you do you TRUST God?

August 21, 2013 Posted by | The World Outside Your Window | , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Love….

I had an experience recently with Love…

I was on the phone with someone that I’m closely associated with, we aren’t quite “friends” yet but as the call closed, she said, “Love you sis” and I returned the endearment with the same sentiment, but after I did I felt some type of way… deep down in my spirit, “Do I love her??? No…I don’t.”  God corrected that in my spirit quickly!! How many of y’all know that God correction comes with a full on lesson!

He begin to remind me of the four types of love:

Agápe means love in a “spiritual” sense. It often refers to a general affection or deeper sense of “true unconditional love” rather than the attraction suggested by “eros.” This love is selfless; it gives and expects nothing in return. Agape is used in the biblical passage known as the “love chapter,” 1 Corinthians 13, and is described there and throughout the New Testament as sacrificial and spiritual love. Whether the love given is returned or not, the person continues to love (even without any self-benefit).

Éros is “physical” passionate love, with sensual desire and longing. Romantic, pure emotion without the balance of logic. “Love at first sight.”  The Modern Greek word “erotas” means “intimate love;” however, eros does not have to be sexual in nature. It can apply to dating relationships as well as marriage. 

Philia “mental” love. It means affectionate regard or friendship in both ancient and modern Greek. This type of love has give and take. It includes loyalty to friends, family, and community, and requires virtue, equality and familiarity. In ancient texts, philos denoted a general type of love, used for love between family, between friends, a desire or enjoyment of an activity, as well as between lovers.

Storge means “affection” in ancient and modern Greek. It is natural affection, like that felt by parents for offspring. Almost exclusively as a descriptor of relationships within the family. It is also known to express mere acceptance or putting up with situations, as in “loving” the tyrant.

After reading this information I realized I didn’t lie to her, my actions weren’t hypocritical, what I said was true… “I love you too” (AGAPE LOVE). Agape Love is LOVE THAT ONLY God can initiate…it is not driven by the conditions we set in place to determine whether we love someone or not.  God laid love on my heart for her and that’s why the words were so easy to flow.  You work so hard to make sure you’re honest, not phony and saying what sounds right that you can often forget how the sovereignty of God and the flow of His Spirit can move and readjust even your life’s best laid plans…

God wants us to love EVERY body…but our human condition can prevent us from fulfilling this mandate…God knows that, but that’s why He Graces us with His Spirit and instills His Love in our hearts so that we can love one another… you learn and grow as you go forward with God, but even while growing He gives us a GOOD DOSE of mercy to help us achieve the milestones He’s set for us on this life’s journey!

Love… I have so much more growing into you to do!Image

July 25, 2013 Posted by | The World Outside Your Window | , , , , | Leave a comment

   

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